ferryboatpeak

I have not abandoned the wild dreamwidth frontier, I'm just trying to discipline myself to finish one discrete project before I throw myself into dreamwidth brainstorming an ill-defined and potentially sprawling next big project. (Also my actual adult job is consuming a lot of attention lately.) Here is some meta rambling about what I'm working on:

Stuff that is very close to finished:
1. mpreg jackrry timestamp (maybe this verse will let me go once i finish it???? i have so many thoughts on everything else that happens outside the story... i know it allllll.... i know who says i love you first and how tom and tom get together and what happens with everyone's career and how harry and jeff get to be friends and the first time harry goes down on jack... but i'm not gonna write kidfic and i can't just ramble on about this verse forever without writing more of it and i'm not gonna do something preposterous like write a full-on tom/tom spinoff)
2. two more chapters of parent trap narry

One-offs I want to indulge in:
3. scene from clarz's fionn/tom/barry vampire husbands/werewolf boyfriend verse
4. party slothry and the golden globes

But the iceberg that I keep circling my kayak around is funkirk winter wedding. Reorienting myself toward the loss of Fionn’s mom helped focus this verse. But somehow despite my fondness for orphan Barry it hadn’t occurred to me until his insta post today that Barry specifically also lost his mom, and that shared experience would have some kind of influence on his and Fionn’s friendship. Even if Fionn resolutely doesn’t talk about it. Does Barry talk about it? Barry is maybe in the best position to connect the dots for Fionn, once he sees Fionn with his family, about how grief is manifesting itself in Fionn’s life in ways that Fionn is not recognizing? Or, was Barry’s experience of losing his mom, and of having a mom, so vastly different from Fionn’s that there’s going to be some friction in how they interact around that supposed commonality?

ANYWAY so I chewed on that for a while and then I got distracted and freewrote a high school flashback of tom cheerily coming out to fionn and fionn thinking, great, this is just one more thing that tom’s going to do better than me. I am interested in the challenge of how to write this fic in a way that is not chronological but still treats high school and college events in an immediate, present-tense way! I have no idea how to do that! But that is why it will be an interesting challenge! There are so many reasons why it would be good for me to write this fic! And so many reasons why it is a terrible idea! aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh